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PiEcEs oF mE8月12日 The Natural Scepticdear blog diary
im not really bored....annoyed with myself ....i need a LIFE...but the issue is WHERE DO I GET ONE ?
ok things i would LOVE to do :
1) play badminton again
2) understand the beauty of the Quran (need a balance nest pas :P----im still rsearching and it keeps getting paused....just want 2 follow what i believe in ; religion has got so confusing these days as a result of everyones big say in in it )
3) i feel lik a hypocrite or show off :P nyway moving on 3) S W I M
4) take/use the liberty of getting lost to wander the streets of colombo
5) want 2 go see the masjid next to odel- out of pure curiosity- as a child ive always been fascinated with treasure and treasure hunts....sigh the kids nowadays just dream of mobile fones....kind of explains my attachement to jack sparrow, orlando bloom and (who wrote 'the gift'----ive forgotten)
6)THIS IS MY RAMBLE BLOG :D 6) the beach :) ----love the sea side....weligama beach is undeniably the B E S T !
7) get into the tiny taprobane island...off the weligama beach
8) A C T ! love pretending to be some one else....sniff---- un recognized talent---- talk about it
9) P A I N T ----have to steal the canvas though from naveed....what a pain brother's can be
10) learn photoshop-----and grin like an expert
that felt good....should recommend this feel good technique to psychologists :) felt the breezy , sea air of weligama beach; felt the water splash aginst me as i made a dive into THE CLEAN , 'chlorine' water; felt myself being lifted up into a content state of mind...the good life....
lets just hope i can remain like this without attacking one of my house mates :D
tc blog
shall post some intellectual stuff later...not goin 2 make myself promise....inshAllah ....need 2 post on team work
ta ta 4月28日 " There's NO place like HOME"hello dere bloggy
ok here goes.... the topic " NO place like HOME" ; take it apart and for the most part it is probably true.
THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME
there isnt
tell me , have you truly found home ?
i havent
who is totally happy and totally satisfied
im not
where is home ?
is home in front of the tv surrounded by friends and chips ?
is home basking in the sun , in the cool waters with family ?
is home listening to gun shots, tending to wounds?
is home , empty stomachs and dreamy minds ?
my home is not in either extreme category description ....my home i dont wish to call here (Sri Lanka ) or anywhere else.....
the closest i came to home was the quiet city of Ruwais (in the United Arab Emirates)...but thats not home no longer.
technology , time and people are moving too fast for me.
home is not something that leaves me behind, makes me feel overwhelmed and kicks me in the rear (experience is the hardest teacher)
is my home in heaven ?
inshAllah i can get there....heaven would make me feel loved
i wouldnt have to struggle to fit in
i wouldnt have to cry
to listen to the agony painted in the news
to watch people selfishly bask in the sun
creating a thirst of want in humans
heaven should be perfect
heaven should be home
maybe we are not supposed 2 know about heaven....coz if we did ...would we look forward to it ? coz its like already tasting the cake...
reread blog : concept is good :D could be put in article form :D heheh self evaluation...
YAY!
there u go bloggy ..todays feed ;) 8月3日 :)sending my greetingshello dormant world
i actually like my new space luk ! manal wat were u complaining about !
sigh i cant understand why people LOVE send ing me forwards...so listen all my wonderful buddies...interesting forwards ONLY...btw i have to thank azeem and chaga ...ure forwards hav been interesting:D so far :P
forward definition :
forwards SHOULD BE interesting
forwards SHOULD not be blank ...and i repeat not be BLANK !
forwards should not have wishes or death threats !
forwards SHOULD NOT make u feel sorry for people who are trying to con u ...
++ :P forwards should be sent back 2 the sender...(source:adrian )
and the list goes on ......
but ryt nw i oughta go
tc blog
will cum bck sum other tym INSHALLLAH /:P 6月20日 flowthought2There are no tears
just plain hurt
She watches the curse take shape
U will NEVER be happy
No turning back now
She takes what little she has
Its a forever seeking
Seeking of an opening
Her hand clumsily falls to her side
fingertips barely able to touch the light
She falls
lying in a heap
exhausted
Her eyes closed
Her heart sealed
NO MORE will she give her heart to another
The grass under her fingers feels cold
She clutches it desperately
as if its all she has
She forces an eyelid open
then another
She tilts her head upwards
taking in the warmth of a tear
that slides down her cheek
Watching the curse take shape
She will NEVER be happy
NOTE: flow thoughts refer to th poems that flow in my head especially when i think alot; most of the time i dont get to write them down ...heheh that's coz most of my thinking times are in my van to apiit, at home when im depressed, in the prayer room ...funnily enough most of the time my flow thoughts are in moving objects.the flow thoughts that do get recorded are the ones i type in my mobile :P yahhhh modern tech.
my life is based on observations. my best observations are when im in vehicles becaus that way i see alot.Especially here in Sri lanka theres alot you can learn by watching changes.
while going to apiit i notice poor families on marine drive that increase in number, i notice poor children with imported toys, i notice joggers, people's expressions, the latest addition a religious temple i think , the road never in proper shape , grafiitti.....
I just LOVE observing but the sad thing is thers's no action....i think about my dreams as a child ...i stiffle them becaus most of the time i get very emotional....i dont know why im writing this in my blog...i dont usually ...maybe because now i dont care whos reading it ..its my diary afterall ...but yah hey i hear about plagiarism and ill get ranjani kanth :P that ones 4 u addy ...i always remember dat dude ....2 in 1 :P hope i spelt his name right manal keeps correcting me ...thanks for reading btw:)
um i know this was supposed to be a note...pls do telll me ;anyone who does read if the note ruins the effect of the poem.
THANK U
6月12日 flow thoughtTheres a persn inside me
and im sure of that
a person that screams i can paint
but when i hold a paint brush
all that appears is an odd squiggle
theres a person ionside me
and im sure of that
a person that screams i can do mental sums
but all that happens
is a shudder when its 16 + 7
theres a person inside me
and im sure of that
a person that screams i can be great
but the farthest i cud go
is behind a competitor
and always behind
thers a person inside of me
and im sure of that
a person that cries with failure
a person that cries with fatigue
a person that cries with emotion
i want to be a someone
a somone talented
a someone brilliant
a someone great
4月5日 im back sort of :Phey blog
hehe ages again ...i luuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuvvvvvvvvvvvvvv my new blog luk ; its ela kiri (cool) :D its supposed to be a circuit board.i hadn't wanted to chabnge but hey i lik this.
ive had many many hard days....i dont even remeber if i told u blog about anything about my move to sri lanka....its been one helluva rollercoaster...so blog ...u shall noe my deepest secrets now :P
ok first of all ; what , where , why and when...infact i might even complete this at home but then i dont know...
what : im at APIIT (Asia Pacific Institute of Information Technology) and im typing on my brand -new -ela kiri look blog. im reading forwards at the same time...when ure bored , u have to keep yourself occupied.
when : hehe now :P ...after a group meeting . i had submitted a project already and gosh im a record holder ..i satyed awake from 11pm onwards to 5 am ...i slept till 5:20 am ..and dat was accidental sleeping.was lying on the bed waiting for the water heater to do its job...had to get rid of my dizziness with a nice warm water bath.IM A RECORD HOLDER...20 MINS OF SLEEP and im wide awake...took a nap during business operations though but that doesnt disqualify me ...:D
why : hehe why what :P why hmmm..why am i back at the keyboard typing away ..BECAUSE ....BECAUSE...i loved the new look ...and the amazing white font was jsut too temptibg...had t o write something.
How : hehe how ...lets c...how ...hehe im typing with my hands ...phone close by me...miscalling my buddys and monitor in front of me...
just read a hotamail alert...ure account is reaching its limit :P when is it not...i told all u guys NO JUNK !If i didnt ok i told u all now...
where : apiit labs...
i know ...a dull day in the dull life of hebah ...i m wondering if the guy using the pc nxt 2 me is getting annoyed by my typing chuck chuck ...:P manal gets annoyed...
current likes in my new place : compared to the uae , u have an identity ..and its easy to get accepted fast.over there u had to be brilliant ..and u had to be a race that was accepted by any of ure superiors ...obviously not all people are like that...but its a cant help thing in an extremely multicultural environment u have alotta prejudice.
likes : life is hmm eventful..YUPZ..in ruwais u had to wait for something crazy to happen but then i miss the safety.
current dislikes in my new place : i STILL HAVE people phobis.im not shy ofr anything; i love talking but i dont enjoy being with people who hurt my thoughts rather than feelings...people who hurt my individuality ...and sometimes ...i dunno ...i might end up whinning and that's not a nice thing...i'll whine later; im not in the mood today..IM HYPER.
Im wiating for uncle to miscall so i can go home ; i dont think he will...its already far far past 5 ...SOB...no sleep...anyways i think ill go to the library and study like a good girl
tc bloggy
i'll try and come back and update inshAllah 1月19日 "Here i am once again ..."hello bloggy hehe i noe ive neglected u ...well cant help really.was soooo busy and had been pretty selfish to everyone nt just u bloggy. so im here bck again 2 update d world im ok really..which is a teeny lie...im throwing myself frm mountains and picking myself up over and over again....this misery shud have ended long ago...anyways never mind. im supposed to be studying actually...free time should be utilized well .i have finals coming up soon i think...i cnt type dis blog :( ill cme bckl later sumtym again....:( inshAllah |
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